An inspiring, honest and intimate memoir about family, love and rising from the ashes.

'Ali's memoir absolutely wrecked me - in the best, most necessary way. It's brutally honest, beautifully written, and I have huge respect for her for putting this into the world' Paula Penfold

'I couldn't put this book down. And it's haunted me since I finished it' Claire Mabey, The Spinoff

'Gripping, revelatory, generous and layered' Alex Casey, The Spinoff

From the age of twelve, Alison Mau wanted to be a journalist like her father. He was a beer-swilling, straight-talking Aussie who was rough around the edges but could quote passages of Hamlet at will. He taught Ali everything - from how to skin a rabbit and throw a punch to how to craft a sharp sentence - and she craved his validation as she navigated the sexist badlands of Australian print and television journalism through the 1980s and '90s.

From Melbourne to London and Auckland, Ali built a glittering career and became a media darling - until an unexpected call from her sister brought her professional and personal lives crashing together with devastating force. As an investigative reporter bringing New Zealand's #MeToo stories to light, she had to survey the wreckage of her family myth and ask herself, 'Am I strong enough?' and 'Are there words for this?'