A girl grappling with Panic Disorder finds comfortâand loveâwith a boy who is hiding a terrible secret in this poignant and romantic novel from Printz Honor medal winner and National Book Award finalist Deb Caletti.
Jade DeLuna is too young to die. She knows this, and yet she canât quite believe it, especially when the terrifying thoughts, loss of breath, and dizzy feelings come. Since being diagnosed with Panic Disorder, sheâs trying her best to stay calm, and visiting the elephants at the nearby zoo seems to help. Thatâs why Jade keeps the live zoo webcam on in her room, and thatâs where she first sees the boy in the red jacket. A boy who stops to watch the elephants. A boy carrying a baby.
His name is Sebastian, and he is raising his son alone. Jade is drawn into Sebastianâs cozy life with his son and his activist grandmother on their Seattle houseboat, and before she knows it, sheâs in love.
Jade knows the situation is beyond complicated, but she hasnât felt this safe in a long time. And she owes it to Sebastian, her boy with the great heart. Her boy who is hiding a terrible secret. A secret that will force Jade to decide between what is right, and what feels rightâŚ