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4.2(1213)

The Way I Used to Be

New York Times bestseller! In the tradition of Speak, Amber Smith's extraordinary debut novel “is a heart-twisting, but ultimately hopeful, exploration of how pain can lead to strength” (The Boston Globe).

Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn’t change who she was. But the night her brother’s best friend rapes her, Eden’s world capsizes.

What was once simple, is now complex. What Eden once loved—who she once loved—she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true, is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she’s supposed to tell someone what happened but she can’t. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.

Told in four parts—freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior year—this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman’s strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, all while learning to embrace the power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.


Author:

  • Amber Smith

Narrator:

  • Rebekkah Ross

Format:

  • Audiobook
  • E-book

Duration:

  • 9 h 45 min
  • 227 pages

Language:

English


4.2

1213 ratings

Lejla

2025-02-16

SKIT BRA

Helen

2024-08-07

Boken började en aning långsamt men den blev bättre. Det var väldigt intressant att följa karaktärens tankar och känslor när hon försöker ta sig vidare i sitt trauma, hur hon förändras efter detta. En rå bok med mycket känslor helt enkelt. Ska bli intressant att läsa nästa bok!

Sanna

2024-05-13

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