The real, untold, and unvarnished story of life inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and the man who holds the key—from the woman who was Hef’s #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door. Read by Holly Madison herself!
A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice in Wonderland after she plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.
But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.
In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex and the infamous parties, as well as what her relationships with her Girls Next Door co-stars, Bridget and Kendra were really like. Holly talks candidly about a subsequent abusive relationship, her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.
This unflinching Hollywood tell-all reveals:
Life Inside the Mansion: From A-list parties to the oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and backstabbing bunnies that pushed a young woman to her breaking point. The Girls Next Door: The real, unvarnished truth about her relationships with co-stars Bridget and Kendra, away from the reality TV cameras. Raw Honesty: A shockingly candid look at losing her identity and self-worth—and the moment in a bathtub that changed everything. Personal Empowerment: A powerful journey of healing, taking charge of her own narrative, and fighting for the life she deserved after walking away.














Nina
2022-11-24
Authentic, open and though she took some jabs at some people she kept it classy. I loved getting a real look into the messed up mansion life.
Eira
2021-09-20
En god tid före #Metoo kunde vi se Holly, Kendra och Bridget på tv i ”Girls next door” och fråga oss varför dom tre ens kunde vilja låtsas vara flickvänner till Hugh Hefner, en man gammal nog att vara alla deras farfar (eller farfars farfar?). Här får vi veta att väldigt mycket av det vi såg givetvis var fejk, men det som hände bakom kameran är värre än vad dom flesta av oss kunde föreställa oss. Holly går tillbaka till kränkande och förminskande händelser och samtal hon haft med människor genom åren, varav mycket tar plats i Playboy värld, och gör vad vi alla velat göra själva någon gång i livet, ger dom svar nu som hon av olika anledningar inte kunde ge då. Hos mig väcks en tillfredsställd känsla av att höra en kvinna som utsatts för maktmissbruk och manipulation få sista ordet.
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