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How I Lost You : A Novel

“An addictive read; a strong recommendation for those who like suspense tinged with a little romance.”—Booklist

A woman without a memory struggles to discover the truth about her past and her identity in this cerebral and dark thriller reminiscent of works by bestselling authors S.J. Watson and Ruth Ware.

I have no memory of what happened but I was told I killed my son. And you believe what your loved ones, your doctor and the police tell you, don't you? My name is Emma Cartwright. Three years ago I was Susan Webster, and I murdered my twelve-week-old son Dylan. I was sent to Oakdale Psychiatric Institute for my crime, and four weeks ago I was released early on parole with a new identity, address, and a chance to rebuild my tattered life. This morning, I received an envelope addressed to Susan Webster. Inside it was a photograph of a toddler called Dylan. Now I am questioning everything I believe because if I have no memory of the event, how can I truly believe he's dead? If there was the smallest chance your son was alive, what would you do to get him back?


Author:

  • Jenny Blackhurst

Narrator:

  • Jennifer Ness

Format:

  • Audiobook
  • E-book

Duration:

  • 10 h 46 min
  • 252 pages

Language:

English

Categories:

  • Suspense
  • Thrillers

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