Trying to Find Myself : Discovering Who I Am, One Step at a Time

The memoir chronicles Sean Morris's journey of survival and self-discovery after suffering a rare and severe hemorrhagic stroke. At the age of 49, Sean’s life is abruptly disrupted by the stroke, which results in a significant loss of memory and cognitive abilities. His survival becomes a medical miracle, but the real battle unfolds in the aftermath—his quest to reclaim his identity, understand his past, and rebuild his life. The book details his recovery process, highlighting the physical, emotional, and psychological challenges he faces as a stroke survivor. Sean grapples with fragmented memories, recurring seizures, and cognitive disorientation, often feeling like a stranger in his own life. His relationships with his wife, children, and caregivers play a pivotal role in his healing, with his wife’s daily mirror notes becoming a lifeline to his sense of self. Throughout his journey, Sean revisits pieces of his past, reconnecting with old friends and colleagues and navigating the complex emotions of losing a former life while adjusting to his new reality. The memoir also touches on broader issues, such as the psychological toll of long-term recovery, the limitations imposed by his condition, and the ongoing struggle to regain independence. Ultimately, the book is about survival, transformation, and acceptance. Sean reflects on his rebirth, symbolized by the day of his stroke, which he now celebrates as his "new birthday."