Have you ever wondered what it really means to surrender all to God? In her memoir, Eileen Kusakabe describes her years of growing up in Hawaii, feeling despised because of her Caucasian heritage.

As the youngest latchkey child with an unstable father, she wonders if even God despises her for all of her failings. Trudging through adulthood, she hears a message of God's design for a life of significance. Frustrated and fearing she missed her chance, she gets on her knees and gives her life to God. All of it. His unwanted response leaves her fighting for her life.